absurd

I suck at crossing streets. whenever i see a car or a bus speeding towards me i shut my eyes and stand rooted to the spot...which is just about the surest way to commit suicide. yesterday while stranded at the rashbehari crossing opposite Jugals it suddenly occurred to me that whenever i get out of my house i place my life in other people's hands. we all do. think about it. we start walking when the traffic signal is red, which means that we have faith on those people who are behind the wheels that they would not suddenly start their car and run us over. there is no reason why they should, again there is no guarantee that they won't. right? the fact that we do not go to work everyday armed and armoured from head to toe proves that we take it for granted that...say for example,our colleagues wont stab us in a fit of anger...or bash our heads against the wall or even shoot us. i know this sounds absurd but think about the world we inhabit...you go to a theatre with your family,and there is a blast and 90 people die, or you are going to office and a bus runs you over trying to overtake another, or there is a blast in the metro...yet we keep faith. perhaps mainly because there is no other way to survive,if you lose faith in your fellow human beings you will crack under the strain and probably be diagnosed with schizophrenia, but partly also because we want to. this entrusting of one's life into hands of complete strangers,this keeping of faith i think is the mark of civilization, of a community. there is something very tragically naive in this....human beings still believing in a cause and effect correlation, still looking for a rationale, still believing in an essentially arbitrary, absurd , and irrational universe.