Friday, September 11, 2009

wonder years

a friend of mine is leaving the country. once upon a time he was more than just "a friend"...he was my oldest friend...my closest friend...
no point in getting all nostalgic now. for the past 2 years, we have barely even been in touch. tomorrow i am meeting him for the last time before he crosses three oceans and disappears into some antipodal region. had it been three years ago i would have been so lost, so heart broken. today i don't know how to react, i don't know how to say goodbye. there's just SO much history. today i am just sad because i am wondering why i am not sad....
that's not entirely true. i am sad...though its not an straightforward sadness. i will miss him. not the person, but the idea. the fact that we were so close in some long-forgotten past life. because i know, when he boards that plane on thursday, that will be it, we will never ever really be friends again. the finality of that closure bothers me. it reminds of a way of life that's no longer there, of the only time in my life i was happy without any reservations..despite calculus, despite byartho prem.
..................."Good friends we have, oh, good friends we've lost
Along the way.
In this great future, you cant forget your past;"

3 Comments:

Blogger workhard said...

Hey thats not true.. u can always maintain friendship longdistance.. that depends on how much both of u work at it.. c mon. this is not the primitive era where u sit and write letters.. theres email, then theres chat and they barely cost u anything..

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10:59 AM  
Blogger eden gardens said...

er. who's leaving?

6:12 AM  
Blogger mojo said...

@shonai : basu.

9:48 AM  

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