Thursday, August 30, 2007

a moment

I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

is it a sin to be happy?what if i look around me and see dirt and death and indignity and violence everywhere and yet i am happy here and now?does that mean i am an insensitive creep?i am sorry but i cant deal with morbidity....very rarely does life on this planet seem worth all this shit,i agree, but it does sometimes,however rarely.these are my profound thoughts of the day.wonder why i am blogging with a vengeance?

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

i wish time would freeze. i like it right now. nothing special...but i feel unusually content...

Thursday, August 23, 2007

somebody said recently that reading Petratch's sonnets is one of the great moments in one's life,like reading Keats's Odes for the first time...or Hamlet maybe....its a transformative experience...sure is...dunno bout petrarch...but when you are reading ,at times you stumble upon a line, a phrase, a sentence that is so beautiful and you think of the grecian urn...happens to me...its such a thrill of sheer hedonistic pleasure...its a heady experience, a surge of pride in what human civilization can achieve, a sudden revival of faith in the now dead and gone vision. if i could write something like that, i would die happy.