with or without you
...you have started it again,why do you keep doing this to
me?every fuckin time i think that this is it,i'm not gonna
fall for this anymore,ever again in my life?
8 months of
effort is flushed down the drain by a 15 mins conversation,8
months of superhuman restraint,self control,self
castigation,8 months of supressed yearning,of desperate
desparate loneliness....all annihilated because of one
goddamn phonecall...no tell me,seriously,how do you do it?tell me,will i ever get over
you?give me a chance,guru,you cant just keep doing this to me
,you know...you cant just plough your way through my
defences,give me time,give me space,its hard enough without
you reappearing in my life every single time i heave a sigh
of relief ....or longing....whatever.
can't really blame you when at the back of my mind a little
voice keeps thrusting the truth in my face...that somewhere
deep down i do not even want to get over you,and though i
know nothings gonna happen between us ever,and though i know
i will never be satisfied with the "we-are-just-friends"
situation either,i still keep stumbling around in this blind
alley...
i don't wanna risk it again,i don't wanna let you know that you are the only person in this world who can make me cry,i don't want you to find out that as far as i am concerned,the rest of the world can go fuck itself as long as you are ok...and the gyanpaapi that i am,in full possession of my senses,totally aware of the consequences of my actions i walk straight ahead,unfalteringly......... 'coz i can't live with or without you...
me?every fuckin time i think that this is it,i'm not gonna
fall for this anymore,ever again in my life?
8 months of
effort is flushed down the drain by a 15 mins conversation,8
months of superhuman restraint,self control,self
castigation,8 months of supressed yearning,of desperate
desparate loneliness....all annihilated because of one
goddamn phonecall...no tell me,seriously,how do you do it?tell me,will i ever get over
you?give me a chance,guru,you cant just keep doing this to me
,you know...you cant just plough your way through my
defences,give me time,give me space,its hard enough without
you reappearing in my life every single time i heave a sigh
of relief ....or longing....whatever.
can't really blame you when at the back of my mind a little
voice keeps thrusting the truth in my face...that somewhere
deep down i do not even want to get over you,and though i
know nothings gonna happen between us ever,and though i know
i will never be satisfied with the "we-are-just-friends"
situation either,i still keep stumbling around in this blind
alley...
i don't wanna risk it again,i don't wanna let you know that you are the only person in this world who can make me cry,i don't want you to find out that as far as i am concerned,the rest of the world can go fuck itself as long as you are ok...and the gyanpaapi that i am,in full possession of my senses,totally aware of the consequences of my actions i walk straight ahead,unfalteringly......... 'coz i can't live with or without you...